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"Life is for the living, so we live and try to act like we're brave." - Jael
At night I'm flooded with memories that are so sweet, almost poetic, memories so sweet almost gave me a sugar rush. I caution myself daily, I don't want to be like everybody else but every time I look back at my life I feel like I'm failing myself daily. I had a really deep conversation with my best friend the other day about not wanting to be like our mothers or follow their footsteps. I believe following my mother's path is currently my biggest fear. It's not that she's a bad person or that her life is horrible, it's just that I aspire to be more, I want more and I feel like I need to break barriers and become more, for my children and other generations that will come out of me. That's why I'm so hard on myself because I understand that I am capable of so much more than what I'm doing. sometimes I stop and realize that I'm only human and I just need to breathe. I think that's why I have more emotional break downs these days. I understand that I need to be patient, that things will happen in time and that everything does not require your reaction. I understand all of these things but they're becoming harder for me daily. I hope I make it, I pray I make it. 









That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!


Peace, love and happy shopping


LONGER NIGHTS

"Life is for the living, so we live and try to act like we're brave." - Jael
At night I'm flooded with memories that are so sweet, almost poetic, memories so sweet almost gave me a sugar rush. I caution myself daily, I don't want to be like everybody else but every time I look back at my life I feel like I'm failing myself daily. I had a really deep conversation with my best friend the other day about not wanting to be like our mothers or follow their footsteps. I believe following my mother's path is currently my biggest fear. It's not that she's a bad person or that her life is horrible, it's just that I aspire to be more, I want more and I feel like I need to break barriers and become more, for my children and other generations that will come out of me. That's why I'm so hard on myself because I understand that I am capable of so much more than what I'm doing. sometimes I stop and realize that I'm only human and I just need to breathe. I think that's why I have more emotional break downs these days. I understand that I need to be patient, that things will happen in time and that everything does not require your reaction. I understand all of these things but they're becoming harder for me daily. I hope I make it, I pray I make it. 









That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!


Peace, love and happy shopping



Get ready to call me extra Jael because I did not come here to play with y'all lol.
You know that amazing feeling you get when you look at yourself in the mirror and you feel satisfied with the way you look? Not because of the makeup or the clothes, but just because you have come a long way and really because you're a good person regardless of what everyone has to say. That feeling of accomplishment. It's been a while since I've felt that way, a very long time. There's some days when you want to believe the lies and invading thoughts but then you decide to follow the little light you can find. I'm understanding daily that there is a little light in every darkness, good in every bad and beautiful in every ugly, we just have to look deeper.



















That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!

Peace, love and happy shopping

EASY, BREEZY, BEAUTIFUL BASSA GIRL


Get ready to call me extra Jael because I did not come here to play with y'all lol.
You know that amazing feeling you get when you look at yourself in the mirror and you feel satisfied with the way you look? Not because of the makeup or the clothes, but just because you have come a long way and really because you're a good person regardless of what everyone has to say. That feeling of accomplishment. It's been a while since I've felt that way, a very long time. There's some days when you want to believe the lies and invading thoughts but then you decide to follow the little light you can find. I'm understanding daily that there is a little light in every darkness, good in every bad and beautiful in every ugly, we just have to look deeper.



















That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!

Peace, love and happy shopping
















       That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!
Peace, love and happy shopping

COACHELLA
















       That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!
Peace, love and happy shopping

BY: Jael Perkins

I stopped running.
I stopped hiding.
My feet hit the ground, weary and wounded.
I am tired of running.
I am tired of hiding.
I hit the ground running every time. 
I am ready to fight you.
I'm tired of running.
I'm out of breath.
I have nowhere else to run.
With my pride on my sleeves and my emotions masked.
I'm tired of running so I'll stay.
When I feel the need I'll catch a flight, but for now I'll stay.
I'm tired of running.
Fight me!

That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!

Peace, love and happy shopping

FIGHT ME!


BY: Jael Perkins

I stopped running.
I stopped hiding.
My feet hit the ground, weary and wounded.
I am tired of running.
I am tired of hiding.
I hit the ground running every time. 
I am ready to fight you.
I'm tired of running.
I'm out of breath.
I have nowhere else to run.
With my pride on my sleeves and my emotions masked.
I'm tired of running so I'll stay.
When I feel the need I'll catch a flight, but for now I'll stay.
I'm tired of running.
Fight me!

That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!

Peace, love and happy shopping


 
Some of the best healing stories happen when you allow yourself to hurt properly. 
I've learned that the best way to heal is to heal unashamed. Do not be ashamed to feel the way you feel and don't feel bad for expressing how you feel. It's okay to cry, it's okay to scream. Don't fight the pain because you only end of feeling worse. I know I sound like a crazy person but I wish I'd told myself this sooner.

I was an emotional wreck with nobody to check me, I was being a crazy lady blaming the world for my problems and scolding myself for not being okay. Sometimes it's okay to not be okay. It's okay to wake up in the morning and not want to wake up, it's okay to feel like the end of your world has happened. It is completely okay to ugly cry because life is a mess. Don't ever shame yourself for being in touch with your emotions, don't ever shame yourself for being human!  Shit happens! Life can get in the way of your plans and it's fine to act up and cry just as long as you don't wallow in self pity and forget yourself. Always remember to pick yourself up when you fall. Live your life shamelessly, don't fight the pain; just feel and heal.























SHOP THIS LOOK
         

       



That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!




Peace, love and happy shopping


DON’T FIGHT PAIN


 
Some of the best healing stories happen when you allow yourself to hurt properly. 
I've learned that the best way to heal is to heal unashamed. Do not be ashamed to feel the way you feel and don't feel bad for expressing how you feel. It's okay to cry, it's okay to scream. Don't fight the pain because you only end of feeling worse. I know I sound like a crazy person but I wish I'd told myself this sooner.

I was an emotional wreck with nobody to check me, I was being a crazy lady blaming the world for my problems and scolding myself for not being okay. Sometimes it's okay to not be okay. It's okay to wake up in the morning and not want to wake up, it's okay to feel like the end of your world has happened. It is completely okay to ugly cry because life is a mess. Don't ever shame yourself for being in touch with your emotions, don't ever shame yourself for being human!  Shit happens! Life can get in the way of your plans and it's fine to act up and cry just as long as you don't wallow in self pity and forget yourself. Always remember to pick yourself up when you fall. Live your life shamelessly, don't fight the pain; just feel and heal.























SHOP THIS LOOK
         

       



That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!




Peace, love and happy shopping




Read my newest project here
https://www.wattpad.com/story/110278825-a-farewell-to-sleepless-nights


When I realized I was scarred
By: Jael Perkins

When I realized I was scarred
I did not cry 
I did not hide
I did not make a move
I was not mad
I was not sad
I was not moved
I thought it was the beginning of my end.
I lived,
I laughed,
And I loved.
It was the beginning of my end.
My heart was a riot
My mind a battle field.
The quiet nights
Lonely beds and rioting hearts .
The beginning of my end was when I confessed to myself that I loved you.
I liked what we had because I liked you.
Amazingly you were the beginning of my end.
Sweet poison 
Slowly drowning
Faded voices
Non discerning
Amazingly you were my regret 
Broken heart beats
Faded foot steps
Empty words
And faded voices but
When I realized you broke me,
I did not hope 
I did not wander
I did not wait or plunder
Instead I wondered
I leaped
Caught a flight and exhaled
Breathe in.
 Breathe out.
I learned to love,
I learned to love,
I learned to love.
The way my father showed me on the cross.
I caught a flight and exhaled 
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
My weary old heart, broken and torn pumped for the first time,
I heard it beat for the first time,
Then I knew I was healing.
When I realized I was scarred

 I learned to love all over again.

That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!



Peace, love and happy shopping



WHEN I REALIZED I WAS SCARRED



Read my newest project here
https://www.wattpad.com/story/110278825-a-farewell-to-sleepless-nights


When I realized I was scarred
By: Jael Perkins

When I realized I was scarred
I did not cry 
I did not hide
I did not make a move
I was not mad
I was not sad
I was not moved
I thought it was the beginning of my end.
I lived,
I laughed,
And I loved.
It was the beginning of my end.
My heart was a riot
My mind a battle field.
The quiet nights
Lonely beds and rioting hearts .
The beginning of my end was when I confessed to myself that I loved you.
I liked what we had because I liked you.
Amazingly you were the beginning of my end.
Sweet poison 
Slowly drowning
Faded voices
Non discerning
Amazingly you were my regret 
Broken heart beats
Faded foot steps
Empty words
And faded voices but
When I realized you broke me,
I did not hope 
I did not wander
I did not wait or plunder
Instead I wondered
I leaped
Caught a flight and exhaled
Breathe in.
 Breathe out.
I learned to love,
I learned to love,
I learned to love.
The way my father showed me on the cross.
I caught a flight and exhaled 
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
My weary old heart, broken and torn pumped for the first time,
I heard it beat for the first time,
Then I knew I was healing.
When I realized I was scarred

 I learned to love all over again.

That's all for now, until next time stay fabu-lous!



Peace, love and happy shopping



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