Ok Before you start asking all dem questions... lemme enlighten you lol.  For once this rant is gonna be positive yay!!
I love my Dad... I know you're like huh? But let me explain. It took me a while to get to this position, the fact that I don't mind that people are reading this is very liberating. I don't really know how to explain this but basically, everything I have gone through is because I was born in a wrong situation. My mother is a very hardworking woman, strong and beautiful I have a lot of respect for her. She provided for me while working at a low paying job. She worked full time while she was going to school.  Growing up over the years I never talked about my father but my aunties and uncles always told me stories about him.

For the first 8 years of my life, I was made to believe that he was dead by my mom's friend. I was told the true story by my aunt when I moved to the U.S. I hated that he abandoned me and basically left me to fend for myself. I knew that hating him meant that I hated half of me, but at the time it didn't matter because I hated myself already.

As my mom would say I was going through my teenage depression(lol I don't know why I still find this funny).  I was never comfortable in my body and basically, I was lashing out at people because of this. I never knew that reconnecting with my father and letting my old wound heal would be the very thing that would change my life. When he first contacted me I was hesitant to let my guard down.  For the first five months, I fought against what I knew I wanted and what I knew would lay my demons to rest... 
It wasn't until I let my guard down before I understood the reasons behind his decisions. Being in a place of understanding was peaceful, it was like nothing I have ever experienced before. As I got to know him more some insecurities and doubts about myself were being erased... Now I'm faced with something I have always wanted; a new beginning!

I'm not much of a philosopher or anything of that nature, I'm just a thinker, a really deep thinker. This is the easiest way I can share my thoughts with you all. Thanks for reading if you have a question or suggestion on what my next rant should be about please feel free to email me @simplyjaelicousfashion@gmail.com. I'm always open to suggestions.

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